That’s kind of how I am feeling these days.

At least, that is how I am feeling this year when I think about last year and where I was and where I was headed. And now, one year later where I am at and how I got here.

What makes this year crueler than the past couple of years has a lot to do with this year being one major wake up call for me. At the same time I wonder if I have used up all my good luck; you know, I have been just getting by for years and sooner or later it was bound to end up like this.

I have too much time on my hands; too much time to think about the life that I have had in Korea and what I don’t have now. I feel as though I have been living out of my suitcase the past nine months. It’s been more of a transient existence; not really wanting to settle down because all I am thinking about is where I am going to be going to next.