It’s what I desire and need the most at this time of the year.

Laying to rest one’s ghosts and demons of their past is not always an easy task when one is far away from family and friends during the holiday season. After having lived overseas for so many years the holidays this year have become the most difficult for me to get through. I feel both sad and disappointed that I was unable to make it back home this year to be with family and friends.

At the same time, I would be lying if I didn’t admit just how bummed out I am that I am going to be spending this Christmas in Korea alone. You know, I have spent a number of Christmases away from home and family and friends, but this year hurts the most.

I think about when I was home last year and how preoccupied I was with finding another job and coming back to Korea. And even when I did get hired, I was still preoccupied with getting back here. That is something weighing very, very heavily on my soul now thinking about when I was home last year.

However, I am very grateful for the quality time that I was able to spend with my Mom, Dad, my brother Jon and my best friend Chris. I might not have spent as much time as I would have liked with them (especially my brother Jon) but I am very, very grateful for what we were able to do. I am thankful for those memories.